Hey people! Hows life. I know i haven been actively updating, and my blog will be open to public again because some of my friends don't have livejournal. Its kind of lame ah, locking it, and opening up. and locking and opening again like what the heck. i wanted to change blog add though, but livejournal kind of don't have the most basic option anymore, and plus mode is so ugly. so i decided to stick to this address. okay so much for my grandmama's story.

Life's been a drama nowadays. landing in such a state of confusion, i feel as if this mess is never going to be cleared up. Thing is i probably din't know what i was exactly doing for the past few weeks. Lets see how it goes, meantime i try to build up my life back (: Recently catched up a lot with my besties and they are still forever crap. i can go out with serene and have neverending stuffs to talk about with her and doing crap stuffs like watching The Strangers. omg this show is hell lame. besides killing and scaring theres pretty much nth about the storyline. We certainly feel cheated. And, and, we bought the same Adidas Jacket and Tee! So happy :D

Bestie is going Uni soon and i miss her. i cant believe i am still stuck in Poly when i could have been in Uni with her already. I should have anticipated this long ago but i still want to rant about it. Qi's attachment is going to end soon, & mine is going to start. 5 months! Like omg. I really hope i learn something there or its 5 months of nothingness. Fen is going for attachment soon too and her allowance is (wth) 1k. A freaking 1K. Talk about different polys. I miss you girls a lot, so when are we going to have a sleepover! :D

I suddenly realised that my thinking is too rigid sometimes and i need to be flexible. I am an oldie. I need to destress!

Natas Aug 1st,2nd,3rd. QMWR Proj due 5th Aug. F.I.R Concert Aug 8th. Audit Project Due Aug 8th. OMG.

On a lighter note, CRM & IBS is officially over. Thank god we are left with 3 modules.



i know my blog lacked visuals. please make do this this and i will post up if there are any! :D

watched 3 movies recently!



didnt think of watching this movie at first, but after hearing what tng said we changed our minds :D
awesome storyline, moreover its true. its like, you really can feel for it.
RATED:
****


i've always wanted to watch this movie but guess what! it turned out to be =/
i felt that there wasnt a lot of content, and i din't expect the ending to be so lame. ):
i think i've just wasted $6. BUT. though the storyline somehow sucked but i still like the kickass heroine :D
RATED:
**



yay today went out with the WLs and this movie turned out better then i had imagined it to be.
if you are into sun wu kong & crystal liu, this is a really nice movie :D
RATED:
****
yep. so thats all :D lots of work to catch up on ): till then,

mel.

end note: to you, fuck off please.
 

it had been a hectic week, loads of  events happened in between
which i don't feel like elaborating about.

i mean, all of us are friends (in the first place). i don't see why we must break these good impressions up by throwing critics to each other now. i don't see the point when nobody ever brought up anything, or the issues we were unhappy about. Since you wrote about us in your blog, i mean, why not own up, like you are a man. if not a man, a guy at least huh? We can always talk things out. Since some of us are alr acting dumb, i think mature ppl like you won't join in to be like another us right? don't reply by saying: "did i even say i am mature in the first place? did i ever say its you? " yep save all these crap because you certainly know you are not refering to yourself as childish. and whats up with **ij.  please even if you treat us as retards please think cause its really common sense. you cannot expect us not to know what is **ij.

so if its not what we think, can you come up with something which has 2 letters and ends with IJ, because given kids with childish, retarded intellect level so besides CHIJ, we don't really know what else its stand for. thank you very much in advance.

so whats up with distinction students? why cant they just play safe and go with the flow? different people have different aspirations and you cant expect them to comply with the "norm" you had in mind. at least people like these don't complain if the end product of a project doesnt turn out to be right. and they won't not talk if they had something in mind. and blame everything else but themselves when the end product sucks.

you know, in the first place we thought we can view you as different from what others said because of er, the "bo-liao" people in BS who din do their projects and set up hate fanclub. because i thought you were nice. but, after the video & **ij thing its really really hard to believe you are not talking about tng you see. it cannot be you are talking about youself. sorry about that buddy.

plus, do you really think we would want to know your GPA. i mean, i know we don't have the obligations. but don't you think that only people who think too much would think that knowing others GPA is a big (or secret) thing. yea maybe its a IN thing now. yea i admit i also dislike people who judge others by GPA but knowing ur GPA doesn't make us rich. or cleverer.

hey it makes sense right?  just say it out next time  if you have something in mind.
you know we don't mind if its for the good of the project. 
and you know i am talking about you, wee kok. because since you dare to write out the **ij, i dont see why you (or er, the kaypo reader of your blog) should still see this thing as private.






or do you want me to put your name as **e *ok (and expect people not to know)?


maybe the next post i will deny everything. later. i wait for people who approve of what you did to flood my comments first.

HOHOHO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEL!

so retarded wishing yourself but hey! i am so high today nth is going to bring me down! :D
i know its cliché, but i simply have to give a "thank you speech" to these people, who really made my birthday a blaaaast!  
READY?!


i really, sincerely with all my heart thank the people who made this 19th an unforgettable one :D if i really did miss out any of your names, my apologies okay because there are too much to remember! you can leave a comment telling me :D the reason i am so so so so happy its because this will be my last birthday starting with a "1" in front of my age. and you guys made it unforgettable. i know there are some good friends i haven't have the time to actually celebrate with them but i promise i will leave time aside for you guys okay! PICTURES TMR!

XOXO,
MELISSA


P.S i saw a kid being abused by his ah ma & mum @ CWP today. that was terrible. ):

fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffreak.

I WANT TO SLEEP.

i hate rainy days.

and today just happened to be one of them.
i was half drenched by the time i got home.
i am still coughing & i did not attempt my reflective journal.
holiday mood & thus did not finish my music theory.
my throat is hurting.
i have not contacted Singapore Flyer & i realised its time to but i still did not because school is screwed up with IBSM.
things are all right now between sharon & tng & me & i am very happy about it.
lc loves me.
mum just randomly gave me 5 bucks and asked me if its enough for tmr's lunch plus dinner.

i know she is kidding. she must be.

i seriously need to start on my reflective journal.
bye.

hey i want to update.

its been a few days since i updated, and i felt so much better after recuperating at home :D yesterday was a pretty long day. went back t the school to return the blazer & meet my sweeeeeeet at the same time. we went t tampines mall after that to have the first gooood meal of our lives tgt at Pizza Hut. the service was actually b a d  because the newbie made us wait for nothing for tables. for food. and even for the bills. so lc got sort of pissed off at the waitress but its okay, the food is definately better then the 必胜克 or whatever you call it in China.

project meetup @ sharon's. managed to do finish imedia fliming & learnt some mj. shuang2 had diahhreoa! (how do you actually spell it?) take care okay girl. stop eating junk fooooood.

had dinner with boss, ladyboss & lc. the chicken rice was legend. so much rice with like 5 pieces of small meat? that was robbery. bought mummy's pressie and wrapped it up nicely. did a card & became dead tired.

thank you, you are really really sweet these few days. i know sometimes i am a tough nut to crack, but still, thanks. (:
p.s jes, thank you for being there! :D

i am waiting for fen to come back from korea. and she did. big smiles!

Finally back from the IBSM trip. & finally well enough to post an entry.
the trip was quite an experience, no doubt. the 12 days taught me how to treasure Singapore more :D
Fell sick the last 3 days and very sick on the departure day.
Thanks to those who cared (meaning lc, shuang2, wk, kristine, hf, adi, shirley, wl, and and my family) and those who didn't.
Life is realistic. When you are sick, nobody wants to get close to you.
Touching you can even spread germs to them you see.
Even the teachers, they only want to stand outside your room door and HOPE you are okay.
When you are very sick the last day, they can still shop and walk like nothing happened.

Everything changed.
I know it myself when i came back from this trip.
People change.
You know when you don't fit inside the circle.
Thats when you must not make yourself seem so pathetic anymore.
Right, lc? :D

have anyone ever thought of,
is loving a particular someone fated
or what you thought you really fought for.

sometimes you will just brush off the possibilities of  separating ways with someone you loved dearly,
or just summarise everything with fate.
for example: a boy doesnt want to pursue his love because of fate.
or, a girl wanted to leave everything to fate because there is no use fighting when she knows she is tired.

but, is fighting for your love part of fate too?

to you, fate might just be a ambiguous belief. you want it, you fight for it.
to your another, its fate and therefore, you fight.
these questions are always swarming around me.
so what exactly are decisions based on?

lets say if you know you are going to be involved in something terrible a few years later.
will you attempt to change your fate or just let it be?
is letting it be part of your fate too?
or is knowing all of these a process in your life, and you will change it by all means.
what if the ending  turns out to be the same too?
will you still say its fate? or because you did not fight for it.

life is so ironic, and fate. the word itself is scary.
sometimes people just cannot be decisive, which i deeply feel that they subconsciously,
are scared of fate.
they did not want to make a wrong decision and get blamed for it,
or even make the right decision but regretting it.
tired people just succumb to fate.
but again, is the latter dictating his own life?

this is confusing.

work was relaxed today :D
chatted along with everyone else while working.
germaine & joanne are my sources of survival there? hehe.
alright. not that bad either, but they are really nice :D